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jennrouth

It is time that I put my foot down. I do not need you, or anyone else to judge me. I have, and always will be, a free spirit. Perhaps my so-called “wild ways” are too much for you to handle, but that really isn’t a problem of mine. I don’t need your actions or words to validate my beauty. I am a strong, intelligent woman who seeks out what she wants, when she wants it. Some people feel like they have a right to throw their two cents in, and I really am baffled by it. Why do the actions I take influence you? Why do the people I surround myself with and the events I attend get such a rise out of you? Honestly. I would really like an explanation. Your approval is not needed in reference to my happiness. Your harsh words towards the loves of my life- being my friends and music- are just wasted breath. At this point in my life I have learned not to let naysayer’s bring me down. There was a time in my life when I needed guidance. There was a time in my life when I needed to hear that I was beautiful, and even then I wasn’t so sure of it. These days I look directly in the mirror and love the woman I have become. Things that I used to see as my flaws are now seen as little quirks that make me who I am. I walk with my head held high and smile at strangers as I pass by. I’ve searched through my soul and found that I am more amazing than I ever gave myself credit for. I will not apologize for believing in myself. Knowing that oneself is beautiful is not a shallow quality. It is evidence of comfort and self-esteem. Sadly, you see it as being self-righteous. I know that I cannot change people’s minds. I don’t ever expect to. I would like to let everyone know that I am finally happy. I am proud of myself. I’ve gotten this far, and I know that with my strong will and determination I can go anywhere I want to in this life. And that is exactly what I plan on doing. I can survive anything this world throws my way. So sit in your peanut gallery and write your critiques and reviews of my life as if it is some melodramatic film. I’m beyond the petty nature of it all. I’m just waking up every morning and focusing on me. Focusing on my future and how I can make myself a better person. I hope one day you can wake up and be as thrilled and content as I am, and make the decision to make your world a better place instead of residing in mine. A bit of advice? Take a long hard look at yourself. If you like what you see, then continue on your path. If you don’t? Be brave enough to change.



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